Stillness of God

Floats lofty on the horizon 

Pale blue sapphirine veil chamber 

Glows The Sanctuary Zion 

Showers down gold molten embers 

Dilutes to land searing hornblende 

I lie in the darkness sunken 

I watch Glory passing me by 

I have no hope to raise my lot 

I sing my last with all my might 

"My love for you God will not end 

No matter how far I descend!" 

"Be Still!" Halts my descending pace 

God's stillness longs for me at peace 

Quiet ache stills, yet be coursing 

Through my soul, life abreast 

God's grace Eternally God's Love Living 

I awaken, as if I dreamt 

I knew I was in my descent 

I knew where I laid was barren 

I felt far across the silence 

Heavy from the lightless tyrant 

The passing of Glory's haven 

There is nothing I have greater 

Than to know wholesomeness passing 

There is nothing I will not give 

To hear silence quiet my soul 

Even if, I am lowest of the low 

Little sacrifices go a long way in reaching for the rewarding peace within the stillness of God.  We need to make offerings to God more than we know.  Depriving our ego from winning the game of the day is important in the growth of our spiritual soul. Gaining control over our ego's privilege to indulge in a frivolous whim of pleasure: a quick bite, a relaxing cigarette break, the next fix of whatever drug of fancy that grants an escape from your life you hate, or perhaps it is a piece of candy, anything that is instantly pleasant. Pleasant ranges from touch to taste, from sight to sound, from auras to aromas. 

We crave them all for their immediate and tangible satisfaction that reaches to our inner core with complete and utter bliss for a single moment. Unfortunately, we must quickly repeat it again and again. It sounds so easy to give a few minutes of tangible satisfaction to spend in silent communion with God. You will find your ego will give you every excuse in the book as to why it is not needed. That alone will be your guide in how much your ego controls your actions instead of your heart and soul. 

Do not let my words written think that I find it easy not to smoke a cigarette whenever I want or eat and or drink anything pleasant or go to a restaurant to splurge on a fancy meal or consume some emotional altering substance to let my worries fade away from my mind or run away from all my responsibilities to enjoy life free of their burden.... I struggle every day to be a better person in the soul God created for me! 

The reading I Chronicles 18:18 - 21:3 begins with the reflection of David's arrogance to call God out on a promise made.  Then David reaps the reward promised by God to be victorious in all David undertakes.  David with a heavy hand of domination over his fellow man and neighboring nations secures all he can under his control.  In the doing David is tempted by the Devil to make an accounting of the value of his kingdom in the number of lives available to die upon his command as a bigger and stronger army than before. 

God reprimands David and sends David a message. David must choose his punishment.  David declares to accept the hand of God instead of the hand of men to administer his punishment.  God sends an Angel to deliver a plague upon the people of Israel.  David sees the Angel ready to strike; David rises up declaring before God to punish him alone and not all for his deed.   God stays the Angel's hand and David erects an  altar for burnt offerings where the Angel stood to become the site of the first temple to God; a place to offer sacrifices to God. 

We are arrogant everyday, reaping the rewards of life God freely gives with loving devotion.  We call on God with our slightest of woes and beg for our endeavors to succeed.  We spend a great deal of time counting, arranging, and maintaining our wealth of tangible goods. Are we as brave as David to claim our just punishment for our deeds done? Or do we beg for mercy to be spared of the consequences of our actions?  Do we set aside time and place to offer a sacrifice of our pleasures in tribute to God for all he has done for us?